Coffee Stains

For my Psychology class, we need to find one song with significance to us. It can represent our life, a moment in our life, or a memory. Everyone will be doing an oral explication of the song next week and I really don’t know what to choose..

Possibe Choices:

• Jay-Z/Alicia Keys- Empire State of Mind
• Jay-Z/Lenny Kravitz- Guns n Roses / explanation unknown
• Taylor Swift- You Belong With Me / because my dance team loves Taylor
  
• We the Kings- August is Over / talks about summer, memories, love
• Plain White Tee’s- Radios in Heaven
• Nickelback- Photograph
• My American Heart- Tired and Uninspired
• Miguel Escueta- Falling Away / because I’m that much of a fob
• Meg & Dia- Courage Robert
• Jack Johnson- Better Together
• Linkin Park- Somewhere I Belong / because I don’t care how old they are, I prefer the old Linkin Park over the new one
• Linkin Park- One Step Closer / ‘cause I’m about to break
• Kings of Leon- Happy Alone

OR option B, I could write my own song. I wonder how well that would turn out.

Hello there my name is Ero

Please don’t fail me and give me a zero

Haven’t played my guitar in ages

Throw me coins, not crumpled pages….

Hm, maybe it won’t turn  out that bad

Been back in school for the past two days and it already feels like at least two weeks. Big pre-calculus test on thursday and chemistry exam on friday. We just get back to school and I’m already counting down to winter break (2.5 more weeks, 13 more school days)..

But this is a battle, better yet, war, I know I just can’t win right now. We never saw the whole “boyfriend/girlfriend” type people in each other, but apparently, everyone else did. We used to be so close, but now it’s just awkward sometimes. Hand written letters, waiting until 9 to call each other, those were the days. I honestly miss talking to you and being able to tell you everything- the good, the bad, the ugly, just anything. You’re too cool for me now, busy with more important people and things. No more late night phone calls, cheezy pictures, or tacky matching shirts. That’s life, we just have to keep moving sometimes.

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San Diego this weekend to visit some family, we’re leaving at 6am tomorrow. Pretty excited, except for the 3 hour drive -_- And before I confuse everyone, a little background history:

My parents separated when I was 6. My dad stayed in San Francisco, and me, my sister, and my mom moved down here to Oxnard. My douche bag of a father “re-married” (although my parents were never married to begin with) when I was 10, and I now currently have two half siblings, 10 and 13 [?] years younger than me. I don’t have anything against them, it’s my dad whom I have a problem with. With that said, a lot of my dad’s side of the family moved to the States, while a lot of my mom’s side is still in the Philippines.

So anyways, fast forward to today. Actually, fast forward to Tuesday. My dad decides to call me for the first time in who knows how long. Turns out, he’s going to be in San Diego too. He and his new(er) family be visiting the same relatives I will be. To be honest, I don’t want to have to put on a show and act like I actually like my dad in front of my aunts and uncles. I don’t even want to be in the same room as the guy. So I’m going to have to somehow have to work out some schedule to visit when my dad’s not there. Problem? Of course there is. My mom refuses to believe I’m growing up and still thinks I still like my dad. She wants me to see him and thinks it’s important for “our healthy relationship.” I’ve lived across the state from him for 10 years now. I don’t think we really had a healthy relationship to begin with. This will be interesting hell-raising.